I was listening to NPR Planet Money, when I remembered I have a PBS account. I donated to NJ PBS earlier this year because it was shutting down (because Trump destroyed the Corporation for Public Broadcasting). I felt bad about never donating before.

After logging in, I saw that Cyberchase was currently broadcasting. I’d watched it as a child in kindergarten.

My parents had a tv in their bedroom upstairs, but it wasn’t hooked up to cable. I’d come home after school, to the babysitter my parents had hired. She didn’t speak english and we had a combative relationship. She also didn’t let me watch TV in the living room, where the cable box was connected.

So I’d run upstairs immediately after school, into my parents room where the babysitter would not follow me, to watch Cyberchase. It was on right as I came home, so I’d watch it and decompress from school, then come back down to solemnly do my homework.

Is this part of where my social isolation comes from?